I Quit.

youamazeme @ 2004-11-03T18:54:00

2004-11-04T00:55:07Z

made a new lj
its friends only..
cause im tired of ignorant people that i do not like reading it.

www.livejournal.com/users/abominablebunny

youamazeme @ 2004-11-01T11:04:00

2004-11-01T17:06:45Z

im grounded now.
yay.
just because i broke curfew..only by a lil bit
and i came home a little 'tipsy'
but i mean, she should be happy because i made it home alright.
right?
im slightly aggervated because i HAD plans.
this is fucking dumb

youamazeme @ 2004-10-30T11:29:00

2004-10-30T16:35:03Z

great news.
im not going to mississippi this weekend.
justin couldnt take off of work.
dammit..

last night i saw van helsing(sp?) it was pretty good.
then i went to walmart
and then came back home to help my brother and his girlfriend and some other guy get ready for a halloween party
my brother was in jail and his girlfriend was a cop. a SEXY cop.
and the other guy was a ku klux klan member.
it was pretty funny.
on my fairy costume the wings broke.
im extremely upset.
so now i have no idea what im going to be
any suggestions?

youamazeme @ 2004-10-28T19:43:00

2004-10-29T00:49:00Z

bad bad bad day.
HORRIBLE.
im not sure if its okay now. i just...gave up.

my kaleb left me.
he moved to texas with my sister and her family.
im very upset.
he is the only guy i can really talk to.
maybe its because of the fact he is four?
this is going to be real hard.

i really need to do my algebra II homework.
but..i dont feel like it. therefore, im not.

youamazeme @ 2004-10-27T15:25:00

2004-10-27T20:27:51Z

field trip today.
i didnt go. im too cool.

so since 4th hour, ive been in TOR.
funfun
actually it wasnt too bad.

justin picked me up in some girls camero.
asshole.
-currently single-
haha

youamazeme @ 2004-10-26T21:14:00

2004-10-27T02:17:01Z

me and justin broke up.
for the day, most likely.

i wanted us to fight.
i wanted us to break up.

i want to try something else.
i want to see how it feels in YOUR arms.
i want you to hold me like you hold her.
you make me sick.
i hate you.

youamazeme @ 2004-10-23T11:05:00

2004-10-23T16:10:57Z

yesterday was...great
right after school i did something i havent done in a loong time.
enough said.
then i went to justins work.
after work he took me to this guys-big marlin-house. he owned stables and justin was going to take me riding.
so we did.
it was scary though. the horse i rode wasnt completely trained and he was bucking and kicking with me on it.
i bout shit on myself.
he didnt like justin either.
big marlin said he just doesnt like white people.
understandable.
i pet a mini pony. justin he would get it for me if i wanted it.
this little boy whose name was ray and he was seven years old, rode that horse i rode.
and the horse was bucking and kicking with him on it so he accidently dropped the reigns. and all you could hear was crying..
justin ran over to where he was at and grabbed the horse and walked him back.
the little boy got off and was sucking his thumb. poor guy.
then we came back over here.
and slept.
that is all.

youamazeme @ 2004-10-21T20:42:00

2004-10-22T01:44:07Z

i need help.
desperately.
ohmygod someone please help me.

youamazeme @ 2004-10-19T17:40:00

2004-10-19T22:44:20Z

all guys are fucking assholes.

youamazeme @ 2004-10-18T16:15:00

2004-10-18T21:17:07Z

trying that 'mystic tan'
i need to add color to my pasty ass.

youamazeme @ 2004-10-17T12:38:00

2004-10-17T17:40:47Z

last night was fun.
different. but fun.

i almost fought a bed sheet.
not really 'fought' but i argued with one.

mud riding is today.
t.j. is no longer single.

im gaining weight.
not cool.

im thinking about having a head transplant..

youamazeme @ 2004-10-16T12:16:00

2004-10-16T17:21:30Z

last night was kind of boring.
i went out to eat with justin. then came back home and watched the our game on t.v.
we did really good against st.amant.
even though we lost 41-48.
too bad that was our homecoming game.
im not going to homecoming.
i wish i was, but, my boyfriend isnt really big on going to dances.
i just wanted to dress up.
that is all.
oh well. im not drinking tonight. there are going to be too many people out getting drunk after the dance and then driving. so, if we get in a wreck, we wont be at fault. they will
i might be going to get my hair cut.
i havent quite decided though.
it wont be short. i know that much.
sunday were going mud riding with the newly single TJ
hes a hottie. it should be fun.
<3monica

youamazeme @ 2004-10-13T15:30:00

2004-10-13T20:37:19Z

not too much going on lately..
friday, justin came over.
saturday went out with bruce, cristina, kaleigh, and justin of course.
kaleigh left to go see some guy -i dont blame her.
nothing too exciting happened. just some funny things cristina said, but im sworn not to say them.
sunday, i dont remember.
this week has been kinda slow. its spirit week. wooo
today i had PSAT. they werent as hard as i thought. i probably did horrible on them.
Next week i have to take the GEE. yay.
im still failing chemistry.
in 7th hour i dressed up like a man and spoke in espanol.
cause why? im a soulja.
-monica

youamazeme @ 2004-10-05T14:52:00

2004-10-05T20:06:32Z

i havent been to school in a few days.
monday, i was just really tired.
but today i went to school, got there, went to get out of justins truck and i felt like i was going to throw up and i couldnt stand up for very long. i almost fell.
so justin called my mom and she said i could come home.
i slept until 1.
it was nice.
then *_____* called telling my mom bullshit about why we arent talking. fucking bitch.
she told my mom stuff like she isnt welcome at our house because i said she couldnt. BULLSHIT. but, now, i dont want her at my house. she lies. im sick of it too. the only reason she started calling was because she says she doesnt have friends or whatever. but im not going to drop all of my friends just because she wants to do something.
uh.
<3monica

youamazeme @ 2004-10-03T11:55:00

2004-10-03T16:59:59Z

i had a pretty good weekend so far.
friday, didnt do anything. i ate sonic though. justin stayed with me.
saturday me and justin got cristina, rode around for a while, looking for a place to drink..
we picked up matt and then kaleigh.
we got a motel room. we chilled there and drank. i took a bath. jason showed up too.
cristina threw a bunch of ketchup at me. not cool.
matt likes kaleigh.
cristina wanted to do 'naughty things'
she didnt though, good girl.
all the girls went home. justin and matt stayed at the motel. aw
i went to sleep. woke up late. it was nice.
<3monica

youamazeme @ 2004-09-30T16:33:00

2004-09-30T21:37:56Z

well yesterday was the worst day ever. that poor little baby.
ah.
i dont want to think about it anymore. i just want that image out of my head. seriously.

ok for future refrence..
if you want to be friends with me like we USED to be, dont talk shit about me or my boyfriend. and ESPECIALLY dont talk about how shitty our relationship is. its none of your buisness. at all.
you have no idea what goes on in our relationship. and YES we fight and YES hes jealous but that has nothing to do with you. its our buisness and i love him. if you want anything to do with me, ever again. dont EVER make that mistake. i dont care what i say about him, whether its good OR bad. i bitch a lot, i do. but i care about him more than ive ever cared about anyone. he treats me awesome and he is always trying to make me happy. so fuck what you think. its my life. back the fuck off.
.monica.

youamazeme @ 2004-09-28T16:03:00

2004-09-28T21:10:47Z

tomorrows the baby's funeral.
thats going to be hard.
real hard.
when it comes to shit like that, i just dont know how to handle myself.

im eating red beans and rice.
shows how cool i am.
its really gross.

dont know whats going on this weekend...
cristina is mad because were cheating on her 'openly'
sorry hunny. kaleigh just has something...special.
ha.
<3monica

youamazeme @ 2004-09-26T11:18:00

2004-09-26T16:26:53Z

this weekend was okay okay until about 2 this morning.
friday justin came over here and i shaved his head
saturday me and justin chilled with his really aggervating friends and then we went and got kaliegh and chilled with her too. justin almost got in a fight with roy. pretty funny. matt thinks kaleigh is pretty.

last nite i got a phone call from my cousin misty. my cousin ashley just had this baby. shes been trying to have a child and she was a really good mom when she actually had one. She had 3 miscarriages before she actually had her baby. It was a boy, his name was Evan. Oh yea, yesterday was her birthday. She went out to celebrate her birthday and left her husband with Evan. They went to sleep. In the past Evan had problems sleeping some nights. He couldnt breathe very well sometimes. When that would happen they took him to the emergency room. The doctors told them not to worry that it was because of the formula he was drinking...
they changed the formula and thought Evan was alright. Well, he wasnt. Last night when ashley got home from celebrating her birthday, she found her baby purple. he wasnt breathing. by the time they got him to the hospital it was too late. he was six weeks old.
Me and my mom went to Hammond to see Ashley. When we finally saw here, she was sitting in a bathtub with her head down. crying. the water was scolding. it took 7 people to get her our of the bath tub.
so, that is how my weekend went. wonderful, huh?
later

youamazeme @ 2004-09-20T15:46:00

2004-09-20T20:51:22Z

lately ive been having a lot of fun.
maybe its because im hanging out with people now-other than justin that is.
cristina has been spending alot of time with us. and to be quite honest. i dont mind
its weird.
wednesday we cooked sausage. well kaleigh and justin cooked. it was pretty good.

this weekend was fun. friday after the game we went to roys house and there were some bishop girls there. they were nice as hell. unusual, i know.

we saw todds truck in the ditch. im glad hes doing okay.

saturday me and justin went and picked up cristina and went to creative-after hours-and drank alcohol. we also ate crackers. they were delicious.

then we went to roys and drank more. we had to bring cristina back to some party. im glad she had fun. because as soon as she left, hell broke loose. :)
me and justin fought. i made him bring me home at like 10-10:30. i was pissed.
but everything is okay now.
i think...

youamazeme @ 2004-09-13T19:51:00

2004-09-14T00:56:06Z

this weekend turned out good. justin went and got cristina. she just chilled with me and justin on saturday. then he took us to burger king, where we saw kaleigh.
shes great.
then sunday we picked us cristina bright and early to go mud riding with bruce and sean.
it was fun and all until we got stuck in one mud hole for SIX FUCKING HOURS.
cristina was supposed to be home by like 4. she didnt get home until a little after 9. sorry cristina.

today shawn and nicky came over for like 10 minutes. it was good seeing them. i havent seen nicky in FOREVER. i saw shawn a lil while back.

i was a good girl.

--monica--

youamazeme @ 2004-09-11T11:10:00

2004-09-11T16:11:58Z

friday was just...gay.
i hate not doing anything.
i went with justin. we went to o'henry's then we went back to his house, with his parents, and i watched him play playstation until i had to go home.
it was so fucking gay.
mindy had a dream about me
:::smirks:::

<3monica

youamazeme @ 2004-09-10T15:13:00

2004-09-10T20:16:38Z

today is my mommys 50th birthday.
woo woo.
today is also kaylas birthday.
i gave her a blessed dollar.
i had two dollars that were blessed. but i gave the other one to ben.
i threw my mom a suprise party yesterday.
it was nice.
she was happy.
it was the first thing ive done for her in a while.
right now i can hear my mom and dad fighting.
its also their anniversary.
my dad is a selfish asshole.
he is picking fights with my mom because she is going out of town this weekend and he doesnt want her too.
she asked him to go, he said no. she wanted to. shes going.
hes just an asshole who really needs to grow up.
seriously.
anyone wanna do something tomorrow?
<3monica

youamazeme @ 2004-09-08T18:14:00

2004-09-08T23:22:07Z

not a good day.
seriously.
it started out okay...
but around lunch, either i got REALLY irritable OR everyone just got REALLY dumb.
i yelled at a few people, they yelled back.
attending to woodlawn makes me want to start smoking weed again.
im not joking.
mindy was upset today. i tried to be there for her, but our classes we at opposite ends of the school.
i hope you feel better mindy.
i love you.

the highlight of my day was coming home and sleeping. but that was interupted by my wonderful mother screaming at me because i didnt tell my brother to get up this morning.
HE IS TWENTY ONE YEARS OLD.
why the FUCK should i wake him up? he doesnt do shit for me, i dont care if he gets fired. he needs to grow up anyway.

it was really weird. today, for the first time, i attempted to let people know how i really am. its just literally impossible for me to cry to people, or actually show my true feelings. i feel like no one cares.
no one does.
thats the sad part.

youamazeme @ 2004-09-05T10:46:00

2004-09-05T15:53:19Z

i had a great weekend.
first time in a looong time.
i was really late getting home. i blamed my 'tardiness' on the lsu game.
great game by the way.
22-21.
holla

anyway. we went mud riding on justins 4wheeler.
it was GREAT.
then went to an lsu party. watched the game.
got a little intoxicated.
went to some guys house.
played cards.
i won everyones money.
not all of it though. like $2 from each person.
oh well, now i can afford my own lunch.
im still tired. going back to sleep.
<3

youamazeme @ 2004-09-03T15:26:00

2004-09-03T20:30:54Z

had a okay day today.
i guess.
me and laci sang in p.e.
we were singing country
it pissed the black fellas off.
oh well.
went to chemistry. took a test.
ben danced for me.
it made me smile.
i needed it.
went to lunch. talked to the pizza guy because noone loves me enough to sit with me at lunch. so i sat with him. we had a hardy conversation.
im such a loser.
the rest of my day kinda went by slow though.
now im home.
trying to decide whether or not im going to the game.
probably not though. no one to go with.
i wonder why that is.
oh wait, because im a loser. thats right.
well. while i ponder whether or not im going. i will be taking a shower. or eating. probably eating. it doesnt take much effort to do that and i am extremely lazy.
--monica--